I really wanted to make a video about my thoughts but I lost my voice!! FML (-_-)
So this is going to be quick and I’m sure I’ll forget some things so please forgive me.
Just got home from hanging out with my best friend, I had a fun night even though it was just us two. My other friends had other things to do, I’m sad I didn’t get to see them before I leave. My friend and I said our good-byes in the car, I could see her eyes water up, I got out of the car before a tear rolled down her face. As I was walking to my front door, that’s when it hit me “I’m finally leaving” then I started tearing up.
I can’t believe its finally here, I’ll be leaving for Parris Island on Monday to earn the title Marine. Honestly, I didn’t think I’ll make it this far. I just didn’t believe in myself.
- I didn’t believe I could lose the weight to Enlist
- I didn’t believe I could score higher than 32 on the ASVAB
- I didn’t believe I could do the Flex Arm Hang longer than 12 seconds
- I didn’t believe I can do 45 sit-ups/crunches in 2 mintues
- I didn’t believe I can run 1.5 miles in under 15 minutes
But have AMAZING people in my life that did believe in me. I’m really grateful for having them in my life.
Sgt. Caraway & Mrs. Caraway
I’ve been Blessed with an amazing Recruiter. He and his wife has helped with so much to get to where I am now. Mrs. Caraway would help with math problems on the ASVAB and she would take me to her gym to work out with her. She’s a beast when it comes to the gym! lol Sgt. Caraway never gave up on me. Since I don’t own a car, he would drive 30 minutes to my house to take me to the office, go to the gym, running in the woods. He made sure I did PT even though I only been to PT 3-4 times with the other Poolees. At the Female Pool Function and Pre-Ship Validation he ran the IST with me, yelling at me to run faster, yelling out the reasons why I want to become a Marine. Because of him my time went from 14:46 to 11:30. Thank you guys for helping me start this journey! And teaching me not to give up!
Remember when I told you, “God has brought us together for reason.” and I thought we were meant to be with each other. Now, I don’t think we’re meant for each other but I believe He brought you into my life to help guide me. Before I’ve met you, I knew nothing about the Marine Corps. After hearing your stories and looking at your photos, I wanted to know more. You are part of the reason why I chose the Marines over the other branches. Because you inspire me. I wish I can write to you but I don’t think your wife would like that. lol (You chose her over me, I just want to say I’m really happy that you’re happy. Hope to meet her one day) I’m taking your photo with me to boot camp, I’m bringing it to remind me of all the advice you given me. This is gonna sound weird but I’m going to be your sister soon! lol Thank you for everything. :)
Before Checking In:
I have a lot of things to do today before I check into my hotel room at 3pm. Need to finish cleaning and organize my bedroom. Kinda messed it up last night trying to find my ID. Need to get few peoples addresses so I can write to them. Gotta figure out what to wear. lol I know its just Boot Camp but I don’t want to look like I just rolled out of bed, I want to present myself well. Jeans and a nice top with a hoodie, maybe? Also, I’m going to take a before pictures of my body and write down my measurements. Weight has always been an issue for me, I like taking pictures to see how much my body has changed, maybe one day I’ll have the courage to show you all my pics. I’m just dying to see how my body would look like when I return from Boot Camp. Also, I’m debating whether I should eat something today. I haven’t ate anything in 2 days!! I know, I know I should eat something so I can be energized and not feel weak but I really really need to make ship weight. So far, I feeling good, haven’t felt weak at all, my stomach only growled once. I think I can make it one more day, if not then I’ll probably have a small salad and work out at the fitness center at the hotel. Please, don’t start to worry about me, I know my body well, if I start feeling light headed I’ll eat something.
Edit: I just ate some chicken noodle soup and it was delicious! lol
What I’m Bringing With Me:
- My Identification Card
- My Social Security Card
- My Recruiter’s Contact Info
- Address Book
- Few Small Photos of my Family, Friends, and my Crush <3
How I’m feeling at the Moment:
I’m really excited, nervous, and scared. I’m excited because I’ve waited so long for this day to come. I’ll finally get to experience boot camp. I can’t wait to share my experience with everyone! I’m nervous because I don’t know what to expect even though I’ve seen so many movies, watched tons of Youtube videos, and read how Boot Camp is going to be like. I’m scared because I’m worried about failing.
Swim Qual week, is what I’m most nervous and scared about because I don’t know how to swim. Last time I got into a pool was 5 years ago. I was at a friends house, in her above ground, I was holding onto the edge then my friend Matt grabbed me and threw me in the middle of the pool and I started to drown. Him and my other friend knew I didn’t know how to swim but they were just there laughing at me while I was yelling out “HELP ME!” Felt like I was drowning forever ‘til Matt pulled me out. I was PISSED!! Drowning is a terrifying experience and I don’t want to go through that again. I’ll just pray to God it doesn’t happen again. Hopefully, I’ll pass Swim Qual Week.
I’m also excited about meeting new people from all over. Hear about their backgrounds and why they decided to join. I’ve already met a couple of girls on Facebook, can’t wait to finally meet them in person. LETS DO THIS!!!
I just want to thank everyone that supports my decision and has been there every step of the way. I’ll think about each every one of you at boot camp. Can’t wait to read your letters. I hope I’ll make you guys proud! YOU GUYS ARE MY MOTIVATION! I LOVE YOU ALL CON TODO MI CORAZON!